Dear family
and Friends,
Happy belated
Mother's Day! I hope yesterday was a wonderful day for all of you. It was an
incredible day for me too :) Being able to Skype with my family was priceless.
I felt like I saw them just a few days ago (Christmas) and then after ending
the phone call it felt like a dream. It is hard sometimes to understand and
feel that we are so far apart and in two completely different countries.
Technology is really incredible. As I was talking to my parents, brothers, and
sister, I could not help but feel reminded of what pure joy feels like. To hear
Nicole talk about life and how excited she was to tell me that she said the
prayer in Primary yesterday was so special, and to even hear that she even
organized my new closet for me in our new purple bedroom. She is adorable and
really knows how to make her big sister emotional. I am so grateful for my
family and the support and love that they give me. I am so proud of their
progress in the gospel and in life in general. I really am so proud to be a
Sender. I am constantly reminded of that each day when I put on my nametag. I
am a sister. I am a Sender. And I am a servant and representative of our Savior
Jesus Christ. It is an honor to put on my nametag each day and remember what I
have been called to do and who I represent.
I have been
thinking a lot about my calling to serve and also a little bit about my future
calling to one day be a mother. The other day when i was studying 1 Nephi 11 I
learned quite a bit about a mothers love and purpose. Chapter 11 is incredible
and talks about when Nephi is shown in a vision the Tree of Life. Nephi sees
the life of Christ, His baptism in the Jordan River, His ministry, and his
atoning sacrifice, but the part that stood out most to me is verses 13-23. (Please
patiently read this and try to understand me as I explain my thoughts)
The angels
shows Nephi, Mary in Nazareth and describes her as "a virgin, most
beautiful and fair above all other virgins" Then in verse 16 the angel
asks Nephi, "knowest thou the condescension of God?" Nephi responds
in verse 17 saying, "I know that He loveth His children, nevertheless, I
do not know the meaning of all things." This showed an interesting idea.
Nephi, doesn't know all things, but he knows that God loves each of His
children. The angel then testifies to Nephi in verse 18 (returning to the story
of Mary), "The virgin whom thou seest is the mother of the Son of
God" and then in verses 20 &21 Nephi says, "I looked and beheld a
virgin again, bearing a child (Christ) in her arms" (20) "and the
angel said unto me, behold the Lamb of God, yea, even the Son of the Eternal
Father!" I love the next question the angel asks, " Knowest thou the
meaning of the Tree which they father saw?" and Nephi answered "yea,
it is the love of God... wherefore, it is the most desirable about all
things" (22) and the angel responded "yea, and the most joyous to the
soul" (23).Nephi wanted to understand his father's vision and as a result
of his faith, a angel of the Lord showed him the same vision, but in order for
Nephi to understand to meaning of the Tree of Life, he needed to understand
what is the love of God. Nephi finally understood after seeing Mary, the mother
of the Son of God and the purest love of all. A mother's Love.
Once Nephi
understood pure love, he could understand God's love for each of His children.
He also understood that the Tree of Life is a symbol of God's love as our goal
to one day partake of the fruit of the Tree of Life. I love the description
Nephi and the angel use to describe the love of God. He said it is the most
desirable above all things and the most joyous to the soul. We each desire pure
love and the love and acceptance of our Father in Heaven. It brings pure joy.
However, when I think of a mother's love, the love my mother has for me and
that I have for her, I can truly understand what is pure love and pure
joy.
I am so
grateful for my mom. She loves me for who I am, even with all of my
imperfections. Her love brings me pure joy and it is something that is most
desirous to me. Mom, Thank you for choosing to be my mom and for just loving me
for me. I am who I am today because of you and your example. I look forward
to one day being a mother and sharing even more pure love with my future
children.
As I ended
the skype call yesterday, my family knelt in prayer. First, Nicole said a heart
felt prayer, and then my dad offered a spirit filled prayer asking for so many
needed blessings and for my success. In that moment, my family was together
again. I wasn’t in Brazil, Nathan wasn’t in Louisiana, my parents, Ben, Zach,
and Nicole were not in Ohio. We were together in the most calm peaceful place.
As I said goodbye and I love you to each of them by name, I wont ever forget
the look on my dad's face, as he said looking into my eyes, "Haley,
(Sister Sender) we love you and I am proud of you". I hope that one day
our father in heaven can look each one of us in the eye and say the exact same
thing. This is our goal and purpose in this life. Return with honor.
I love my
family and I love my mom more than words can express. Talking to them yesterday
was the best gift I could have received. I hope you all have a wonderful week
and feel of my love and prayers. Like I said to my family, " See you in
November!"
Love always,
Sister Sender